|Yes. This was work!|
I have felt this way for quite a while and just didn't want to admit it. I find myself moping around on Sunday afternoons, not knowing what to do with myself and taking a ridiculous number of naps. I find myself wanting to get out of the house, but not really wanting to go anywhere. Nothing ever sounds good for dinner. I become sullen and a little difficult to be around. It doesn't happen every week, but it happens too often. And the reason is simple...
I miss youth ministry so much. For so many years, every Sunday afternoon was spent "at work." Making last minute plans for programs. Buying eggs and pantyhose for games (ask if you don't know!). Getting songs ready for music and worship time. Praying over the evenings activities. For nearly 30 years every Sunday afternoon was spent getting ready to serve Jesus by serving teenagers. And though it has been 5 years since the last time I did it, I still miss it every week. And sometimes it just overwhelms me how much I miss it all.
So if you want to know what a "Crabby Carl" looks like, stop by some Sunday afternoon. I can't promise anything, but the chances of me being grumpy go way up. But by night time I realize that it is time to get over myself. I am blessed, God is still in His Heaven, and I am loved by family, friends and a Savior who died for me. My glass is once again full. And so often on Sunday nights I pray these words: "Dear God, don't let my past remind me of what I am not now. Walk with me into the future." It's a walk we can all take together. Blessings to all for a wonderful week!
Because of Jesus,