Last night I was looking at You Tube, searching for clips from some of these artists, when I discovered terrible news. Lee Eshleman of Ted & Lee (on the right) died in May of 2007- and I had no idea. Here was a man I had quoted often; a man I had hired to come teach through drama at our church; a man I had eaten dinner with at Applebee's. This was a man who had taken a nap on the couch in my home. It turns out he was also a man who had dealt with depression his entire life and in the end could not live with the pain. But I didn't know that, or that he had died. Due to various circumstances, I had lost touch with Lee...and now he is gone, and I never even knew. My heart was filled with sorrow for his spouse and three children, and for Ted. I immediately began to run my minds' video clips of Lee, as Andrew the Disciple in their Fisheyes program; as the Angel Gabriel and as Solomon in The Creation Chronicles; and as a total wild man in The Squirrel Family Reunion. I smiled as I remembered, and I felt sad for the loss. A loss I had missed by more that two years. Two very difficult years for me.
I began to wonder what else I had missed. Marilyn and my Mom came home from Will's band performance at the football game and told me of a dear family friend who had gotten divorced in the past year- and we had no idea. My mind became a blur of thought, wondering who else we had lost, who else had been through tragedy during these past couple of years while I have been so focused on ME. I was feeling a little overwhelmed, feeling like somehow I had failed these friends...and God only knows who else.
I know this post is a bit scattered, but so is life. I pray today that God will make me a better husband, a better father and a better friend so that I may be of better service to Him in the name of Jesus. I will miss Lee. My prayers are with our friend and her new life. Treasure the people in your life- let them know Jesus loves them, and so do you. And for all of my friends with whom I have fallen out of touch these last years, I leave you with the words of the patron saint of Florida, Jimmy Buffet: "If the phone doesn't ring...it's me..."
Because of Jesus,